For us to enjoy and to make us smile.
There is never enough time to do all the things we want to do,
And never enough ways to simply say, "I love you".
Our children are precious in everyway,
Each one brings sunshine and laughter into our lives everyday.
They are all God's children, that much is so.
So what right do I have to take them with me if I go?
But on the other hand-what right do you have to take them with you?
I wish I knew the right thing to do.
What kind of life are we giving them-fussing and fighting everyday?
What are they learning from all the horrible things we say?
Is this the kind of life God would want for his children?
S life of fighting, hatred, anger and sin?
There has to be a way for a better life-
But does that mean me and the kids, the kids and him or the kids, him and me still his wife?
Please Lord show me what to do?
I have complete faith and trust in you.
In the end God did just that-
There was no turning back,
The house we were renting was being torn down for a four lane road-
I found an apartment and he chose not to go.
Guess after taking most of my years from me...
He suddenly wanted tobe free.
He still sees his children when he wants to...
But thank God he and I are finally through.
Last Friday night he and I took the kids to his siter's gospel singing-it's in a barn-fixed up of course...
I hadn't been in church or sang God's praise in years to my remorse.
Tanner, my eight year old son sang "I'll Fly Away" and "Glory, Glory, Glory" in this booming voice to the crowd-
My heart melted and tears rolled down my face-I was so proud.
Then I thought maybe everything does happen for a reason...
All in God's time-it's own season.
I have always feared change in my world-
And it terrifies me that they are growing up so fast-Stephi's a beautiful young woman;no longer mom's baby girl...
Soon going off into the world to fulfill her own dreams-
With Spenser and Shannon quickly nipping at her heels it seems...
Before I can even blink-Tanner and Blakelee will too be grown-
And it's time to open my heart-I don't want to spend eternity alone.
I know when I least expect it-God will bring someone into my world to share-
My dreams, once put on hold, to be their mom-to forever care...
They'll always be my babies, it's true,
But whoever you are-I am really looking forward to a life with you.
Maybe we have already met-maybe we will someday-
But in time all will be revealed, in God's time, in God's way.
© 2007 Jennifer