I’m crying tears
Of solid pain
On the ground they crash
Like the pouring rain

I miss my love
With all my heart
We were perfect together
But I tore that apart

I took for granted
All we had
Now I can’t smile
And I wish I was dead

I want to die
But I’m too scared
I’m such a coward
It’s just not fair

I’m such a ass
I ignored her feelings
Cared only for me
But now in pain I’m reeling

She left me
For a dumb S.O.B
But she loves him so much
Way more then she loved me

I tried to play it cool
Like I didn’t care at all
But then she yelled at me
To stand up for how I feel

I just kept quiet
While wiping my eyes
When I finally said something
I said goodbye

But that didn’t last long
I can’t live without her
So we made a deal
 We would be friends, me and her

After awhile
I just couldn’t take it
I had to tell her
But found out I would regret it

I took her advise
And stood for how I felt
I finally did it
I played the cards I was dealt

But it didn’t work
It became worse
She told me to grow up
I felt I needed a hearse

Tears filled my eyes
My hands were trembling
I could barely move
Let alone think

I started acting stupid
Yelling and crying
But finally sucked it up
And told her fine

I pretended to be happy
For the longest time
But decided to stop
All the senseless lies

I acted how I felt
Cold and empty
I would always talk about how I felt
But that got her angry

"Stop bitching."
She said
"Stop complaining."
She said

I became so confused
I thought I had grown up
I was admitting how I felt
I opened up

"You’re right."
I said
"I’m sorry."
I said

I went back to lying
Acting happy
Until I could figure out what to do
How to grow up and have her love me

After awhile
I finally thought of it
I’ll get more involved with school
Get straight As until I finish it

Now we hardly talk
She says she misses me
She want’s me back
But growing up has made me busy

You want me back
You want me to talk to you
But I’m growing up
I’m so confused

What the hell
Do you want from me
What the hell
Do you want me to be

I’ve tried everything
But in all I’m unsuccessful
I’ve tried so hard
But I can’t escape this hell

I want your love
I want to be near you
Hold you in my arms
And tell you I love you

The loss of your love
Has destroyed my life
Destroyed my soul
And filled me with strife

I will never again
Be truthfully happy
Until my life
Fades away