Our Journey So Far - by Joanneac

Our Journey So Far

Today is your very special day

It's the day we celebrate your birth

Everyone celebrated your safe arrival

Down here on planet earth.

Your Birth Mum spent 5 days with you

In the mother and baby home

But she was unable to care for you

As she couldn't be left alone.

She loved you so much she knew what was best

Was to find you a new Mum and Dad

And although she knew it was best for you

Giving you up made her feel so sad.

Social Services decided the best thing for you

Was to find you a family

They searched for two whole years

And guess what, they found me!

I'd waited and waited for two long years

To mend my broken heart

When I lostCiara and Alex

I thought my world had fallen apart.

One look at your picture was all it took

Toknow you were right for me

To heal the hurt and unhappiness

And to once more a family be.

To find you had a younger sister

Was such a bonus too

We'd always wanted two children

And she was as stunning as you.

We couldn't wait to meet you both

And the day we met was so special

Seeing our gorgeous new daughters

Made our lives instantly so much better.

Those big brown eyes and curly hair

Looking back up at me

Made my heart fill with a rush of love

As you stared back from behind the settee.

Five days later we took you home

To start our life anew

What I didn't know way back then

Was how much my love for you both just grew.

You recieved lots of compliments

That you were cute, adorable, sweet

People enjoyed watching your expressions

As you learned to stand on your feet.

Everyone loved to cuddle you

And Katie eventually learned to walk

You both started to grow and get bigger

And mumbled words as you began to talk.

Lucy woke up every morning singing

As she treated us all to a show

And as we gradually got to know each other

Our love continued to grow.

Sometimes you'd chat for hours

Gibbering about this and that

I couldn't understand all of it

But I did understand car, drink, and cat.

Bit by bit you learned to trust me

And we had a lot of fun

Once Katie found her feet

You both kept me on the run!

At first you were both glued to me

And you wouldn't let me out of your sight

Walking around with toddlers wrapped round my legs

I really must have looked a sight!

Going to the park was a favourite

As you both loved to play on the swings

And we went to some toddler groups

Where you painted and learned to sing.

I must admit that sometimes

Hearing "The wheels on the bus" once more

Was the tiniest little bit irratating

But it never became a real bore.

Lots of "firsts" for us together

As we shopped for Lucy's first shoes

She had a furious face on her

As she was going through the terrible twos!

The first time we took you to meet my family

I was bursting with pride at their reaction

They fell in love with you both

I could tell it was instant attraction.

Everyone loved you so much

As they got to know their new nieces

And me, being your silly old Mum

Burst into tears and went to pieces.

To be given a second chance at Motherhood

After losing your sister and brother

Made me feel that I had been blessed

And I'd love you like no other.

Our first Christmas was so special

As we'd waited for one with children for years

And seeing the delight on your faces .....

Just thinking about it brings me to tears.

The first year it passed all too quickly

And all too soon Lucy was off to school

She made lots of friends on the way

As she tried to remember their rules.

One year later Katie joined you

Leaving me behind at home

Worrying about how you were doing

And hoping that you weren't on your own.

But thankfully for me, you loved it

And you looked forward to going everyday

You couldn't get there quick enough

As you said to your friends "Come and play!"

Birthdays they came around, quicker and quicker every year

And each one had a different theme

Bouncy castles, swimming, trampolining

As you and your friends let off steam.

And each year I'd think of your Birth Mother

And all the things she'd missed

But she knows that you are happy

Loved, and cared for, and being kissed.

And here we are 10 years later

We have made it through

And although we have lost Daddy to another

I'll always be there for you two.

Unfortunately sometimes things happen

Sadly me and Daddy grew apart

He lied to me about his lady friend

And that tore my world apart.

Somethings just cannot be mended

As too much hurt has been done

But we both still love our daughters

And will try and make sure you have fun.

I cannot speak for your Father

But I'm sure that he loves you too

Only time will tell if he means it

He has the rest of his life to rue.

But one thing that you can be sure of

In this time of unrest

Is that I love you both dearly

And that I'll do my very best.

I know sometimes I don't get it right

As I struggle to learn to cope

But having you two here with me

Being together just gives me hope.

I know sometimes I don't get it right

And I may seem sad and blue

But there is one thing that I'm sure about

And that's that I will always love you!

Happy Birthday With Love From Mum XX

Copyright of Joanneac