I've been crying behind your back, darling
Hoping you'd turn round and change your mind
But you've shown you're never moved by tears -
I can as well cry an ocean.
In the haze of my tears;
In the midst of this confusion
I've watched the paradise crumble
The paradise we've long called home.
It hurts more to think that
Fearing for our children's future
I have wasted a million years
Holding on to a chimera.
My faith in you has been this big:
That even when it felt desperate to do so
I still gave you my all.
Now that you've walked out on me
And your actions seem decided
Should I torture myself with thoughts of you again?
I close my eyes,
Breathe in, and in again,
Then let it out in a gush!
Letting it be gone and forgotten.
It's the heart afraid of letting go
And the heart afraid of breaking
That never learns to love again.
John M. Wanjora.