Forgive me; Forget you

FORGIVE ME; FORGET YOU

How much should i really take

before admitting defeat

How long should i wait

before it sinks in again

loving me is not your priority

you gave your name to someone else

you bring the courts into our affairs

you dissect and pour your disgust into everything

But what was it I kept hoping to see

when i look at you

I kept hoping for the best

that the surprise twist

at the end of the season

would reveal

it was all a dream

I kept hoping the hero would emerge

and save me, save the day and we

you and I would kiss as the

credits faded and the crescendo

rose

You would show them all

they were mistaken about you

You know who you loved all along

and i knew it too

that it is why i believed in

you

Forgetting you will be a must

not in the sense you think

i simply now withold my trust

i am so tired of being afraid

so weary and ashamed of the waste

so disillusioned too about what i felt for you

so hurt inside by the many tiny things

so ready for all this to simply end

so lonely when i am with you

so sad for the things, all the things

i wanted to do, but now not with you

so much longing for a life

that will never be lived

not with you

not with you