i will never understand.

It was so hard to figure out why so much hate from you, why we would crash every day with one another?. Why? I cant understand, I always asked you why you treated me so bad, what had I done to you? But you never answered me what I wanted to hear you always blamed everyone else for you actions. You weren't able to take responsibility for none of your actions.

I never did anything to you, but to stay close to you. God it was more back steps we gave then forward, you always found the way to push me away.

All the things you would tell me, words that broke me down and made me feel like I was a nobody. I grew up with every day feeling I didn't belong hear, that this was not the place for me. You were supposed to be a father, a father that was supposed to be there to make me feel good to make me smile when I felt down. Instead you weren't there and you where always the one making me feel bad.

I learned to take my place hear and understand you, well I didn't understand you then and I still don't understand you now. I guess in a way I'm thankful for who you where since today I can see how strong I am to be hear today.

I couldn't make you be a father to me and I can't change who you are. Maybe one day you'll be a better grandfather to your grandchildren.