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pushed under the misery, and i don't understand the hurt.

Submitted:Oct 15, 2007    Reads: 191    Comments: 0    Likes: 0   

So confused,
I don't know what to do,
Nothing makes sense in this mess of my head,
Need to make it stop,
Have to silence all the screams,
If I should live,
Or if I should die,
Doesn't seem to matter,
Left cold and alone,
Stupid and pathetic,
Lost and in pain,
Wretched feelings over take me,
Tie the rope around your neck,
Slit the veins and take the pills,
Close your eyes and start to cry,
Tell me I'm worthless,
Tell me not to care,
Tell me I deserve to die,
Please stop the guilt,
Feelings burn and blood itches,
Eyes sting and my sight prickles,
I can't see straight,
Nothingness surrounds me,
Noises fade,
Touch is gone,
I smell the blood but not the pain,
Senses blinded,
And I still don't hurt,
Let me feel it,
Bring the pain and watch me squirm,
Fall to the ground,
Face down in the shit,
I see you,
Bloodied and bruised,
You don't deserve this,
The way I do,
You are perfect,
You are beautiful,
I am flawed,
I am ugly,
Watch you pierce the skin,
And I know you feel the sting,
Happiness is tainted,
So give me the bruises,
And give me the blood,
Drown me in your hurt,
So you can escape it,
Sick of wishing,
Sick of waiting,
Choke on the spit,
Throw up the blood,
Scratch away the itch and release the filth,
Disgusting and low I turn to you and cry,
Why doesn't it hurt?
Please take the mistakes,
Let it be over,
Kill me and wait for peace,
Tears cloud your eyes,
You start to cry,
Cuts throb,
Thinking stops,
Suffocating under this,
I realise that it's true,
Nothing matters anymore,
Except you,
Pushed under the misery,
I watch you walk away,
Emotion dies,
My body hurts,
And hell waits,
Face stained,
Blood dried,
And I don't want to hurt.


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