I'm wondering if there is a future for us,
I'm pondering, on what our future would be like together-
I'm burning, to know how you really feel about me.
Those words, they sting and they hurt so bad,
"I don't see this working out"
Should I really feel this sad?
I'm downing chemicals with really long names,
They float through my bloodstream and clog my viens,
I'm numb on the inside, and numb on the outside,
I'm trying to hide what I'm feeling,
Inside I'm decieving myself.
I tell myself I'll wake up and you'll be mine again,
I tell myself I'll wake up and I'll be fine again,
But I know that's not true.
There's only one thing that can make me better right now,
And that one thing is you.
Your kisses heal me, and make me float,
Your smile causes cotton mouth in my throat,
Your touch inspires me to be better,
But without you my cheeks just grow wetter-
These tears won't stop pouring out,
What am I supposed to do now?
You're leaving and I might not get to say goodbye,
You're leaving and I think I might just die,
I'm so exhausted on chasing my dreams,
Why can't they just come running to me?
I'm going to miss the way you play with my hair,
Or how when you rub my hands yours lingers there,
I'm going to miss your awkward chuckles,
The way you mumble under your breath,
The way your heart beats under your chest,
The way you make me feel like I'm the best.
I'm going to miss you more than anything,
Everyday I'm going to lie down and think about you,
I'm going to remember every second with you.
I thought that this would never happen to me-
That I'd find someone and feel complete,
And then have him completely torn away,
I'm sitting here writing this today-
Hoping in the long run we'll be okay.
I'm not going to forget a single second of being with you,
The way your face lights up when I smile,
and the way your lips feel after you smoke,
The way your muscles move when you laugh,
And how you would joke around with me,
Or rub my back.
I'm so tired of running away,
And finally when I want to stay,
You have to go somewhere.
I'm going to be here,
I'll wait years for your kiss,
Or the moments of bliss,
I'll wait for your kiss, and the feeling of your fingertips,
and if we never meet again,
At least I'll die knowing true love is real,
That no one can fake the way I feel,
I know every second together was true-
Because I will always be in love with you.