It is hard missing someone you never had.
You are always on my mind no one can take away that I am your dad.
Not being able to be in your life hurts me like a pain like no other.
This pain is worse then a love ones death or losing your one and only true lover.
Despite what your momma says I do care.
See I am apart of you just look into your eyes.
The reason me and your momma didn't work out cause our relationship was built off lies.
Your momma won't forgive me ,our past together she has thrown it away.
When you are old enough to come to me any place I am at you can stay.
Denying you I am soooo sorry I had to make sure.
When I was with your mom I was young and dumb but now I am pure.
The fact that I don't know you ,and you are out there ,tears me up inside.
Your dad has been writing so I could live forever if I died.
I blame myself but I am not the only one to blame, there is always two sides to every story.
The fact she won't let me see a up to date picture of you builds up my fury.
I don't care how many men she has been with, you are still my daughter.
Times like these my own self I want to slaughter.
I know crying won't bring you here.
Not only in your face but in your heart, I will always be there.
I never knew my dad and the same thing happened to you .
Face to face one day I pray and have faith that I will see you.
So much I have missed ,it really hurts you know.
With both paddles you must continue to row.
Daddy's little girl don't think for a second that I don't miss you.
My life will always be incomplete until I hear and see you .