It would take me years
to figure out how you smile so perfectly
how you flow through my mind figuratively
constantly, like my waves match yours
and were in sync
like every move I make
But I watched you go
Because this wasn't worth it.
I like to think I'm stronger as time goes by
That I don't think of you as much - but
trying to say I don't:
is a lie.
Truth be told if I don't I'm just a half
waiting for you to make me whole
say the words that my soul has ached for
for all these months.
With endings there is always a flame
always a silver lining in the rain
and pain of loosing your heart to a game
seems never ending
countless hours remembering
what day, what time, what moment, what smile
was the last one
was the true one
I know my healing has just begun
Because I don't miss you
I mourn you
You died and you never said goodbye
And I know if I ever bump into you again
You never will.