Running to the coast...

I have cried a lot lately, done some real deep soul searching

Looked at the mistakes I have made roll down my face in tears

Realised that I am a good man but forgot my direction and purpose

Now I need to salvage something from the last fifteen years

I cannot move forward or concentrate on me and change

If I am constantly thinking about her and who she is with now

I need to put some real distance between us if we are to be friends

And possibly salvage some good from the wreckage somehow

I forgot about me and my purpose in life and my character

I have spent far too much time unfocused and down on my knees

She knows that I love her and our children 

I just need to find my own cheese

Although I was bitter at first and so angry at the betrayal

I have lightened up lately 'cos I feel we're not over

We had something truly unique and so special

So I am moving away down to Dover

I will shed more tears and think about them

Pine for them all night and day

But; if we are ever to move on from this

Then getting away and giving her space is the way

I wish we could make love one more time

Portray our feelings with silent touches and looks

Then I will go, start my new life and begin again

Work, save, write and bury my head in books

Take photos of the shore and people

Take long thoughtful, reflective walks on the coast

I can come home to visit once or twice

Stay for the weekend maybe, enjoy a family roast

I will send poetry and money and gifts that will show

They are still my world and they were always my life

One day in the future we could be a family once more

And she may love me enough to become my wife...