Do you hide your tears from the world
to never show the pain which haunts you inside
as the memories of a that which is now lost
absorbs you into the shadows of your mind?
Of a love that once was so strong and true
making you believe that the future would be so wonderful
and the dreams of Mr. Right now have come to you to stay,
only to have it taken away
by a drunken foolish act you regret ever doing.
Knowing the pain you have brought forth
as it rips your soul apart in a slow and silent torture.
Do you find yourself now within a sea of unfamiliar faces
surrounded within a society of false hopes and deciet
where lustful eyes stare upon you now
not seeing the woman you truly are
only the outer surface which brings about such lustful thoughts
they long to make come true with you
because you are so naive and innocent?
Knowing you are an easy prey for them
a conquest which would be easily obtained
with just a few kind words and a false caring smile.
Never knowing the truth
for you always believe there is good in everyone
until you find out to late your belief is nothing but a delusion.
Can you feel yourself slipping into a madness
where sit alone and your mind wanders off so suddenly
no longer in control of your thoughts
wishing that true love would have stayed to protect you
but now you slip into a mental mist that blinds you
disconnecting with the world
even though you are not aware with it
your heart continues to throb in anguish
nothing can be done though...the past can not be changed
you feel the bi-polar gripping you now
making the world slip away
for that is the only way you can handle it
as you refuse to take medication to help you
and self subscribing treatments for you that you no nothing about
so you will never have to admit
that you are hurting inside and it is out of control
letting yourself live in a nightmare all your own
as you wear a mask to hide it all
believing in time it will all go away.
But you do not see that you are fooling only yourself
as you exist in a world of your own lies you tell yourself
in a world of corruption and carnal wontonness
trying to show it does not bother you
when inside your mind and will slowly wears away
like the sand on a beach as the tide rolls in and then out.