A Darker Shade of Guilt--poem

A Darker Shade of Guilt

Ever since my wreck, it’s been a darker shade of guilt

This is the stuff from which nightmares are built

Something occurs, and I over-think it backwards and forwards;

Until the problem seems much worse than it needs to be; words

Never said, except in my head

What if? What if? What if it happens this way instead?

Dark scenarios play themselves out,

Deeper and deeper, the shame and doubt

Bent and tortured, the things my mind sees

Will it ever quit haunting me? Will I ever be free

From the guilt? I’ve always felt this way a little bit,

But since the wreck it’s hit

Me a whole lot worse; it’s all the time now

I’ve got to get past this; please show me how