Poem--The Struggle Within

The Struggle Within

It’s a battle with myself, it’s a constant war

to stay positive, and not to give in to the more

destructive feelings deep inside my head,

for if I did, I’d never get out of bed

Every day, I have to fight not to let negative win,

to not think, “Oh no, here we go again!”

My first thought about something is down

I always see something and frown,

I guess I’m a glass is half empty kind of guy,

but I guess I should ask myself why?

I don’t like this scowl constantly on my face,

but somehow, a smile looks out of place

I don’t want people to be in fear

that, “Oh no, the downer guy is here!”

I want to lift up, and not drive away

with the words that I say

I don’t want to be a wet blanket,

I realize my view of the world is all bent

towards the negative, towards the down side

I want to be more positive, or a least say I tried!