I need the darkness, the silence,
I need to not give up, just forget,
Push aside and not regret,
Oh, I need this..
But I can't just stop thinking,
I can't just throw away memories,
And cover them with what's left of me,
Oh can't you see,
I need this pain, I need the shame,
I wish my life wasn't the same,
As it is now, but I don't know how..
To make a change, for the good,
I just wish I understood,
The meaning in all of this..
Oh I need this..