It Doesn't Matter Anymore

It Doesn’t Matter Anymore

It doesn’t matter anymore because no one even cares,

My pain cannot be seen or heard, for I am too scared to even tell.

It seems cruel and unfair, because I was in this state of sadness for too long…

But I learned, that it doesn’t matter, because friends never stay for the ride.

They will try to tell you that they’ll be there for you, and they love you,

But really, they’re sadistically lying to you just for their own game.

I used to think it was my fault for making the ones I called “friends” move away,

Now I know that it wasn’t my fault, and it was none of theirs either.

It’s the dark and twisting demons inside of me, which have come to stay forever.

Everyday – day in and day out – these demons have ravaged inside me, only to see my painful reaction.

How can I have anyone’s help, when they don’t hear my cries?

Why do they think that this is only a game, these truthful things I write?

Yet again, it doesn’t matter,

The only thing they’ll remember, as I ascend towards the sky,

Are the “it doesn’t matter anymore” statements I’ve left behind.