No, I Don’t.
I will not,
I should not,
I would not,
Ever love you. Ever.
Not because of the past, the things that’s happened to me, the things that have morphed me into what I am today,
But because I simply cannot.
It is not that I don’t want to, because I do with all my heart, but I can’t let that happen
I can’t let myself find home and optimism in something so fragile, and naïve.
I can’t believe in something that is nowhere near tangible, like love, and let myself believe that it will last,
That it’s a higher calling, that it actually means things to people
Because it doesn’t.
Look at all these people, who throw their lives away for anew for love, and it’s all smashed to smithereens,
Look at everyone who’s become so heartbroken that they decide to end it all,
And look at everyone who says that love is worth it, but it is only because they haven’t felt the pain of it before.
So why should I even try, why should I try to love you when it is never going to work between us anyway?
True, I might sound stupid and naïve to you, but I’ve been through enough to make a grown man cry.
So, do not judge me because I choose not to love, that I choose not believe in the impossible,
That I do not believe in love anymore, because the person that I want to love,
Will never reciprocate the deeply embedded feelings that have planted themselves inside of my heart.
I don’t love you.