I didn’t know that I would find myself in this situation again, accidentally falling in love
I didn’t know that feelings could develop so fast…so quickly, almost overnight
Did you know? Did you put this curse one me, is that why I cannot stop thinking about you?
I guess I could understand falling in love with you— in my mind, you equal the vision of perfection.
Everything I want, everything I need, everything I desire the most with all of my heart;
That is why I hate this, I hate being in love with you.
Constantly thinking about you, thinking about us being together, I can’t help but feel as if a part of me inside is dying,
And the worst part; the selfishness, the days on end I spend wondering if you care,
If you love me just as much as I love you…
It’s too much. I can’t take it.
Not when I find myself wanting to hurt anyone in the way of us,
Anyone that blocks the opportunity for us to see each other,
That’s not me.
I’m not overly jealous for no reason, I don’t want to be suspicious anymore,
Even if that means I cannot be in love with you anymore; even though you’re everything to me.
Even though it seems like it would kill me if I ever let you go, I don’t want to be that person;
I don’t want to be that girl who relies on someone else to be something,
Even though you make me be someone better— someone you can love.
And maybe, maybe when you say that you love me that you’re telling the truth,
But I can’t, I just can’t be someone who is nothing without you.
Even though I’ll always love you, I can’t,
Not when I have these trivial thoughts while I’m so in love with you.