Unsaid Words

Unspoken

Like a suffocating force, the pain encloses on me.

It’s not physical, but emotional and mental.

There’s a barrier on my brain, biding my unwritten thoughts.

I can’t speak, you won’t speak, and our thoughts stay in our enclosed minds.

If I could just break through and slay my thoughts across the wall,

Could you finally see inside my mind?

How could you; if I can’t even understand myself in the first place…

But even I would finally tell you what I meant, I couldn’t anyway.

I’m sure that it would be too pain for me to bear, and you would look away from me in shame.

I’m screaming, I’m yelling, crying for you to hear me out.

You only stare back at me, not caring, not even wanting to hear me out.

And why?

What have I done to ever make you feel so ashamed of me,

And why can’t we seem to understand each other like we did before?

“I love you” isn’t a simple enough word to explain to you,

And the word of “forgiveness” won’t forgive what’s happened between us.

Instead, we stay unspoken with each other, and our bond is scarred forever.

I’ve always loved you, and I always will, but…

Our words will still be unspoken forever.