Why I Hate You
I wish there were other words I could say or use to describe how I feel about you,
But the words I hate everything about you will have to do.
I hate everything about you, but only because you change around someone else
I hate you when they're around you and you're a different person, and that's when I wish I could kill.
I know it's not right for me to say that I want to kill, but I do when I'm around you
I want to stab you and hurt you just like you've hurt me, just so you can see how it feels
This hate brings unwanted memories and pasts that I have been trying and trying forever to get rid of,
Yet you bring them all back, with just one phone call, just one utterance of a name,
And I'm ready to kill again.
Ready to slash and slice everything in my way that makes me feels these things.
I don't want to feel emotions, I don't want to be happy or sad or depressed.
I want hate, the raw and gritty truth of hate.
I want this hate to stay longer, instead of disappearing and I forgive you again
Why should I even bother to forgive you? After all the things you've done to me, I don't see what I haven't killed you already
It's deep in my chest now, and I'm ready to sharpen my knives and stab until the end has come.
Not just your end, but mine as well.
Because I can't and won't live anymore. I can't live with you and all this hurt you've caused.
What's even worse that you don't even care what you're doing to me; it's all about you.
It doesn't matter what I'm going through or why I hate you so much as I do.
But the time is close now, I can feel it.
My hand is shaking as I edge near you, holding my knife in place as I imagine the blood running down the walls, blending everything together until nothing makes sense anymore.
I want you to die. I don't care what it takes, that's how I feel now.
And there you go again, making me feel emotions.
This is why you can't be trusted; this is why I have to kill you from spreading around your hateful filth.
But in the end, aren't we both killers?
I'm going to kill you, but you killed me, too. You killed my soul.
I don't care what happens to me afterwards, I don't even care anymore.
Because once you're gone, nothing matters.
The world doesn't stop for one person.
Because hate makes the world go 'round.
Hate, my one and only friend.