My Other Half

I try so hard,

To look people in the eye.

But thier eyes are like open doors,

Allowing me to see through thier disguise.

I am so tired of knowing what people feel,

I wonder if everyone else can do the same,

And sense emotion through someone's eyes.

It's driving me insane.

I want so badly,

Just to be with you,

But there is something first,

That I must do.

I have to fight back,

Against my other half.

All I feel is sorrow,

But I hide it with a smile and a laugh.

It's like there are two sides of me,

Fighting for control.

And now this war inside my head,

Is starting to take its toll.

One half of me wants me to move on.

It wants me to try to love again,

To try once more to trust,

Like I used to back then.

But the other half is the one in control.

It is the darker side of me,

That wants to keep me safe,

And not let anyone see.

It still remembers what happened last time,

When I tried to trust someone.

It remembers all the pain,

And how I came undone.

It's telling me not to trust anyone,

Ever again.

It's telling me I'll only be hurt once more,

That I'll never find a friend.

And so my two halves,

Are engaging in a war.

I war to see who comes out on top,

And who ends up on the floor.

My darker half is winning,

Holding me back.

Keeping me from being with you.

It's courage that I lack.

I'm so afriad to be hurt again,

That I'm too afriad to make the first move.

That pain from before has poisoned my mind,

Something time cannot undo.

My darker half is holding me against my will,

While I'm trying to break free.

I need someone to help me fight off,

The darker side of me.

I can no longer trust anyone.

My mind's a twisted mess.

I can't even trust myself,

But I try my best.

But who will win the battle for my mind,

The dark of the light?

Who will be the one to rule it all,

And who will lose the fight?

How long must this war last?

How long until it's done?

Meanwhile it's tearing me apart,

And I have nowhere to run.

I just need a little help,

I need to choose a side.

I have to make up my mind,

Before I run out of time.

Comments:

Crazyguy

Great poem! I loved it! Awesome! I hope that the dark side loses the battle though.:) Great poem I loved it.:D

Posted: Apr 23, 2008

Author Comment:

Thanks. Glad you liked it. :D

Beautiful poem Carly. I understand this very well, but sometimes you just have to take a chance... and trust again. I know it's hard. But, what could come of it could be something amazing. You are a fantastic writer, and a beautiful person Carly.

Posted: Apr 23, 2008

Author Comment:

Thank you so much. I will try to take a chance. Really glad you liked it. :D

Lamis
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It is really great. When I read it I felt in a moment that you were talking about me. I liked it so much.

Posted: Apr 23, 2008

Author Comment:

Thanks. :D Glad you liked it so much.

Willi

wow!this is a beautiful poem.trust me i fell u.i like it.u rock.

Posted: Apr 24, 2008

Author Comment:

Thanks so much. I'm really glad you liked it. :)

matthew smith

your poems are so emotional and personal, u certainly open up your heart, and this is my point because if this poem is how u really feel then u have already won, u know which path to take, one that will lead to happiness!!!!

Posted: Apr 25, 2008

Author Comment:

Thanks so much. I really did put a lot of emotion into it, so I'm really glad that it showed. :D

Raya

Wow that was a great poem.I voted "I like it".your poem was very emotional and personal.Hope the darkside losses the battle.lol ... great poem

Posted: Apr 25, 2008

Author Comment:

Haha, thanks. Really glad that you liked it. XD

XBrokenHeartedX

Wow that was very deep. The emotion was really strong and I felt like this girl, having this war wage in my body. It was great how you described it as a war too. And in the beginning, the imagery was beautiful. How she can see the emotions in others eyes. It's sad, but terribly terrific. I absolutely loved it:D

Posted: Apr 26, 2008

Author Comment:

Wow, thank you so much for the wonderful comment. I'm really glad that you liked it. :D

Alice Oiseau

fantastic poem. emotion was powerful and strong. i could really emapthize here. i loved the poem overall and my favorite line, for some unknown reason was, "and how i came undone"
i dont know why but that line just stuck with me. i loved it. i guess its b/c i kind of see like a thread unraveling. hmm.
great poem! keep up the lovely writing!

Posted: Apr 26, 2008

Author Comment:

Thank you very much. I'm really glad that you liked my poem. Thanx for the comment. :D

ashen

Great poem. =D I can relate to it so well.

Posted: May 2, 2008

Author Comment:

Thanks. :D

Gemaster
(not registered user)

Wow. That's very good.

Posted: May 19, 2008

Author Comment:

Thanks. =)

Tanya
(not registered user)

i know your story, my friend..., so moving and so sad. Make the win!

Posted: May 25, 2008

Author Comment:

Thank you so much! ^^

XxLast BreathxX

I love this poem. Every line makes sence... :)

Posted: May 30, 2008

Author Comment:

Thanks. Glad you enjoyed it. :)

RaisinGirl

This one is perfect...you've described your own battles within and such honesty...I felt as though you were describing myself and my own darkside...please feel free to write me back...I'm interested in gaining the same writing skills that you have one day...thank u once again for your beautiful expression, no matter how dark life feels sometimes....

Posted: Jun 3, 2008

Author Comment:

Really, you honestly think I'm that good? I don't think I'm that talented when it comes to poetry, but sure, I'd love to give you a few pointer here and there if you want--but I noramally don't like being a critic. haha, thanks for the comment.

RxQueen

Great write, I like the whole battle with yourself theme, very cool.I think alot of people can relate to this. You are a truely talented writer, well done. :)

Posted: Jun 11, 2008

Author Comment:

Thank you so much! ^^

Dark Skylight

This is so wonderful.And dark and sad a bit.I like this poem.
:)

Posted: Aug 7, 2008

Author Comment:

Thank you. I'm glad you liked it. ^-^

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