For far too long
I have been haunted by my past
Regretting my past mistakes
Grieving for my past sins
I allowed
self-hatred and self-condemnation
to consume my entire soul
For this,
I forgot the true meaning of love
of forgiveness
that moving on
was beyond my wildest dream
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For far too long
I have been confined and detained
in this miniscule cage
that has no boundary
I struggled to break free, to get out
but failed and fell every time nonetheless
For this,
I got comfortable, I got used to
getting stuck in this ever horrendous wilderness
that I forgot
the true meaning of freedom
the exact feeling of liberty
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I got so sick and tired
I got so exhausted and disgusted
I was so broken and discouraged
that I couldn't breathe anymore
I wanted to give up, to end all sufferings
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But that moment, that one moment
A still, small voice in my heart whispers
"Let go, my child
not your life, but your past
Rise up, stand tall
You have so much potential
You just need to discover them
You are so special, so beautiful
Even when you feel like
no one loves you, cares for you
I will never leave you or forsake you
I love you so much
You just did not realize"
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That moment, that one moment
was so miraculous, so breathtaking
tears filled my eyes, streamed down my face
I knew deep inside my heart
that this
is God
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I couldn't break free
because I thought I was alone
I couldn't get out
because I thought no hope was left
I couldn't move on
because I thought I was not able to
but all along
He is always there
loving me, encouraging me
I just did not realize
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Life is just too short
Time will never stop ticking away
I don't want to squander my precious time
waste my one and only life
just to lament over my past
that will never come back
Moving on, rising up
be strong and very courageous
is all I should have done
a long time ago
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At last
I see the light
that is constantly illuminating me
At last
I feel the love
that is always embracing me
At last
I found the hope
that is going to keep me alive
At last
I realized
that death is not the way out
but it's just a coward's act
that life is a wonderful gift
but only the strong ones can understand this
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