When Evil Is Invited

When I first came to know you

every nerve in my body is screaming,

telling me to stay away from you.

But there was something intriguing

something really fascinating

that ignites my curiosity

towards you

"A little fun won't harm anyone"

You whispered in my ears

I followed you.

Curiosity kills a cat.

But I am not a cat.

At least that was what I told myself.

Little did I know

I was tricked into your deception

Little did I know

that was the beginning of my downfall

Without even realizing

you became a crucial part of my all

an obsession that I never thought I would crave

When I was with you

you did nothing

but bringing out my ugliest side

my most demonic nature

From wrecking other people's life

to messing with my own self

I've done nothing

but destroying and destructing everyone

My hands were filthy

My soul was tainted

My conscience was defiled

Yet

you were the brilliant mastermind

behind all the catastrophes

that I've created

I despise you

I detest you

There is nothing I desire more

than to be rid of you

But like a leech

you refused to liberate me

you continued to latch on me

and sucked out all my good little things

so that I'll be someone I'd rather die to be

someone you always want me to be

--- Your incarnation.

I tried to run away

I attempted to break free

but before I know it

You've already hunted me down

and put me back

into the never-ending vicious cycle

Watching me suffer

and doing your dirty little errands

has been your greatest pleasure all along

But the brutal reality hits me

hard on the face

You didn't force yourself on me

I gave in to you

It's not because I can't be rid of you

it's because I'm scared to run away from you

If only I've been wiser

If only I were sensible

I would have run away a million miles away

never to see you again

When you revealed

that your name was

Evil.