I've finally got the nerve to write you a Love letter
Then I crumbled the paper
dropped the pen and said "FUCK IT!"
Just when I thought I loved you
you decided to throw a curved ball
it did not miss... not even an inch of my mind, body, or soul.
You've been by my side since i was a child
I hated you from the start
I wont lie, you made me smile at times
But mostly, you made me cry.
I hated you for who you are
you are mine.
I'm sure you didn't intend to hurt me
People around me made you the way you are.
sometimes I feel as though i'm lying to myself,
I'm pretty sure I play a part in who you are.
Lately you haven't been so bad,
things are looking up
but deep down I fear another curved ball,
I wonder what it will hit this time...
I have no room for pain, so give me your best shot.
I'm taking control now,
So here i go one last time
uncrumbling the paper,
Pen in my hand
Maybe I sould continue the Love letter I started
Or maybe a lettter of appreciation...
I appreciate the hard times,
And all the hate i've received from every angle.
I appreciate the laughter
The happiness I now feel.
I have yet to mention who you are,
maybe this is the time
because i can no longer blame you for who you are...
You are mine,
I allowed others to make you who you are,
so i blame me.
You belong to me,
And this is why you are called Life..
No one ever promised you'd be easy
But I was strong.
You see, this is why i couldn't bare to write you a Love letter.
I don't hate you
But I have no room to love you... yet.
So for now, this letter of appreciation will just have to do.