I Dream of Suicide

My finger tickles the trigger

And you flash across my mind

As the lighter flickers in my eyes

And the gasoline glistens on my toes.

I tighten the noose around my neck

And you flit across my thoughts

As the garage door slowly shuts

And the car hums in my ear.

The pills fall from my palm

And I dream about your face

As the razor finds my wrists

And the water fills the tub.

A single strand of hair

Falls from the building’s tippy top

And as I fall a thousand feet

You are all I see.

And as I lay here in my thoughts

I snuggle close into your chest

And try to push away these urges

So we can stay this way forever.