Holding Back

You hurt me, you broke me

Yet you've done nothing wrong

Everyday I blink away the tears

And you wonder why I won't look at you

Whenever you ask my response is the same

While inside I'm numb and cold

But even, though, you did this to me

You're why I'm holding back

My heart is breaking

And my hand is reaching for the phone

But then I stop and stare

And smile grimly at myself

Because here I am holding back again

Every time I think of breaking your heart

I start to wipe away the tears

And wish my heart was strong

But I know I won't stop holding back

Once I tried to break a heart

Because he'd ripped mine away

Everyday I cry inside

For what I'd once felt

I was dead

I was cold

I was crying on the ground

For everything he'd done to me

Yet I held back then

To hurt his friggin' heart

Even though he'd torn mine to shreds

I was weak then and I still am

My heart is breaking

And my hand is reaching for the phone

But then I stop and stare

And smile grimly at myself

Because here I am holding back again

Every time I think of breaking your heart

I start to wipe away the tears

And wish my heart was strong

But I know I won't stop holding back

I wish I was stone

Then my pain would ebb away

And the dying hearts of others

Wouldn't sap my strength

Because I am weak

I am scared

And I will never stop

Wishing that I could numb away the pain

And break a heart

To stop my own despair from leaking in

But I'll hold back until the day I die

My heart is breaking

And my hand is reaching for the phone

But then I stop and stare

And smile grimly at myself

Because here I am holding back again

Every time I think of breaking your heart

I start to wipe away the tears

And wish my heart was strong

But I know I won't stop holding back

I'll just stop and stare...

Hope you liked it! I haven't written in a while. So I'm not sure if this is good or not... Ah well I still hope you liked it! Thanks for reading!

Love, Emily