Life is dark and terrible.
I can barely describe it.
I feel like I can move on or I will lose HIM.
I feel like now that HE is gone I cant breathe.
I cant feel hurt nor can I feel pain, and I just feel numb; very numb.
Maybe HE was a dream.
Maybe HE was never here and never cared.
Maybe HE was using me.
I have so many unanswered questions that I need HIM to answer.
I hurt HIM really bad, I didnt mean too I just did.
I am paying for it now though.
GEE i tried to put myself on the path of god once more and then my boyfriend breaks up with me.
Life is a stupid ironic paradox!
You always want something you cant have just like I want my boyfriend because I really care about HIM but I cant have HIM.
HE says HE "loves" me but yet HE doesnt want me?
I dont understand HIM at all and I probally never will.