I know im stupid. im lazy, im crazy,
im a failure, antisocial, hateful, Ha! even a bitch at times.
Im unloved by the one i love. ive been abandoned, my family is falling apart.
my life is shitty, but everyone keeps telling me im lucky.
no one understands what i feel, what i want, what i need.
they keep pretending everything is okay. that its fine.
but its not. it never will be.
they stopped fighting, and i feel helpless because i cant fight this battle alone.
whats the point in living if you cant fight for what you want, and people let you down?