drowning in downing

I know im stupid. im lazy, im crazy,

im a failure, antisocial, hateful, Ha! even a bitch at times.

Im unloved by the one i love. ive been abandoned, my family is falling apart.

my life is shitty, but everyone keeps telling me im lucky.

no one understands what i feel, what i want, what i need.

they keep pretending everything is okay. that its fine.

but its not. it never will be.

they stopped fighting, and i feel helpless because i cant fight this battle alone.

whats the point in living if you cant fight for what you want, and people let you down?

~Rebel Rose~