It took me a while to realize what you've been somehow telling me for so long. It came to me when it didn't matter what I said, and it didn't matter what I wanted to say. You've been saying it to me for so long, but I never noticed. Apparently, I can't take a hint and when you went to the last resort, I finally got it. I got that it didn't matter how much I tried to change or how much I tried to do. You would never love me the way I love you. It hurts me to finally say it, but now I'm actually saying the truth. I don't mean anything to you and I should just stop. It used to be fun, trying to get you to laugh or give you that push I thought you needed. All I thought you needed was a little push and you'd love me. But apparently, you need to completely fall. You're no where near how I feel and now I finally get it. My thoughts of what we would would be like together, have gone away. No more wishful thinking for me.
Why would I possibly bother with a lost case. Nothing can and will change. Just another thing, going wrong in this life I happen to live. I still have my friends and me, but I don't have you and it seems, I never will. I bet you're glad now, about me finally giving up. It's what you've always wanted. I may have given up, but my heart doesn't want to. You still are my light in this dark tunnel that is my life. Although, you have flickered and started to go out, my heart is still searching for you, waiting for you to come back to life. I can give up on you, but my heart can't. I know how many times I've probably said this, but still never to your face. They are just three simple words, that when combined, create something way beyond simple. They are the three words I've always wanted to say, but still can't. I love you.