Thinking of you, Still

 

Sometimes I want to die

Sometimes I’m gonna cry

Sometimes I feel some pain

Sometimes I wanna,

I wanna dance in the rain

 

When I dance in the rain

Life gets a little better

And all eyes are on me now

There are no more worried here

I’m still just a little girl

 

I’m still a little girl

And I don’t want to feel this way

When a tear falls down my face

I know my life is full of tear

I know life ain’t the same without you

 

My life will never be the same

It’s not my fault; it’s not your fault

It’s the fault of the drunken driver

Who took you away, from me

Leaving me alone in this damn world

 

I know I’m alone, alone in the world

I do unnoticed, by everyone

I’ll scream and shout

But there is no one around

So I’ll go unnoticed, unnoticed by the world

 

Nobody will ever notice me

I’m just a thing of imagination

A thing that is in the background

Of every situation

And that makes me wanna die

 

I wanna die

Right now, right here

Because nothing is magical

Nothing is wonderful

And I’m just left with these scars

 

So I’ll now have these scars

Down my thin arms

I’ll hideaway and feel so insecure

I’ll think I’m better

But that’s just a lie

 

This is a lie to myself

Telling me, everything is fine

But who am I kidding

With all these twisted words

Because everything has an end

 

I just want my moment to end

I just want to lay here till the end

I just want this world to be gone

Then I won’t feel anything at all

 

I remember how I would feel

When your arm was around me

I remember we had so much fun

When you were by my side

But you don’t have a future anymore

 

I hear people talk about their future

But I live in the past

People don’t understand

That your dreams are out of reach

Because that’s what god has planned

 

I think of god

And I try to pray to him

Hoping my world would get better

But I think my prays go unanswered

Because nothing seems to get better

 

I’m told my life will get better

But then why do I feel worse

I’m told I’ll feel better

But I’ll just scream and curse

And I want to leave this scary place

 

 I know what to leave

Instead of staying here

I want to be gone

And I think love has done a run

Because love has left me standing here

 

Why do I give love ago

Because I’ll become broken like everything else

I wish I was cold as stone

Because I wouldn’t feel anything

All I want is to be stone

 

If I was stone

Life would be so much better

I would have no more tears

I would never feel alone

Because I won’t feel anything at all

 

Everything I feel makes water appear

Water comes down my face

And I wish I gone from this world

As easily as my tears fall

Because that would bring me closer to you

 

That bring me closer to what I really want

But life is full of disappointments

So I don’t want a thing

Because my heart will break again

And nothing will be the same

 

Some people don’t want the same

I do because my life was perfect

There was a you and a me

And everyone knew

And we thought we were better, than everyone else

 

But when you left me, so did everyone else

And I was left to try

Try and cry my pain away

I thought it be gone by now

But all I want is to be next to you

 

I want to next to you

Like the summer in 2 0 08

But now that’s just a memory

Of a little conversation

I once had with you

 

With you I had the most magically time

With you I had no worried about the land

With you everything was simple

Because you light up my world

But that won’t happen, not tonight

 

 

Tonight I will have dreams of you

Like the night before

Your be forever in my mind

And forever is where you stay

I just make a wish, thinking about you