- Disgusting -

Disgusting

There’s this new desire
To become hollow
Like dried out skin
A snake sheds
To ridden itself
From what’s within
To consume myself
Mind
Body
Whole
I need to fill this gapping
Trench while burring
My deity
to silence its doings
She ridicules me
Always taunting
Her words swirling
Within my otherwise
Empty
blackness
mindless

To keep unholy
desires
From burning
I’ll let the fire eat away
At the tips of my fingers
Selfishly indulging
I’m craving
Clouded inhaling
Mixtures of smoke and ash
To surround
My trembling
To never wrinkle
Like air
Disturbed by sound
I can’t stop laughing
It’s like these four walls
are talking
Telling jokes
To the sane part of
Holes plotted
keeping pace with my clock
Always moving
Always growing
Twisting and turning
Like my grave
I’ve dug alone
With my burnt finger nails
Flaking
Disgusting
How I enjoy
Starving
Disgusting how
She bleeds
Down my throat
With whiny
Whispers of
Forgotten hope
and lies of better

My better
Is withering
While my
conscious
is dying.
Disgusting.