TO BE ME something that ruins my day Can’t I disappear...Can’t I stay invisible? I’ve took it long enough. I will die...and you already know why.
There are things inside....That I try to hide.
Thoughts I want to wipe away.
There are times I want a blue sky
And all I get are clouds
I want to heal the wounds I bare
To just drift away without a care
If I could I would drip away into the ground......
Disappear, and never be found
It’s the pain I have, it’s the feelings I regret
And Yet there’s always something in the way
There are things I say, things I do
But you won’t listen will you?
I want to be missing
I don’t want to be seen
I want to run away and hide
I don’t need you by my side
I don’t want your help!
I want to leave........
Can’t you see? This Is the real me.....
The one that is bare without the mask
The one that is weak......Lying here in her defeat.
Drain and cut, bled and dried. Now lying here waiting to die.
I am a shadow to someone else.
Just a burden they house.
A child without a cause....
I’m like a piece of clothe against the river
Bending, but never tearing
The water watching away the dust and dirt......
But never taking away the hurt
I’m just here.
And I don’t want to be
Please. Let go
I want to leave
I’m tired of crying......It’s worse than dying
To have your heart ripped out.
To feel the pressure
To feel the pain, and to bleed
Just to stain the white of my skin
Just to watch as the life I held
Withers away...Little by little.
Not just today...Everyday.
Do you realize what you do to me?
I’m not hurting myself.....
Your hurting me.
There just words to you.
They mean nothing.
But you don’t understand
How hard it is just to stand
As you look, what do you see?
As i bleed how do you feel?
Don’t you care that your killing me?
I can’t live with you, it’s not worth it. I can’t live me.
I can’t breathe...I can’t see!
I’m not me!
Maybe this time the hurt you feel....Will be what I’ve lived with
All my Life.
If I leave then maybe you’ll see.....Just how it was to be me.
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