When I think about what you have put me through
but i so wish this was not true
When you punched, kicked, battered and bruised me
when all i wanted is for you to see
Then there comes that very first day
when you took my innocents away
"CRY, CRY, CRY"
You even made me scream and I kept saying
"DADDY PLEASE STOP"
I even was praying
that one day you will stop playing
When I think that I will never live a normal life like any other
and then one thing becomes another
When I think about how you destroyed every part of me
when all i wanted was for you to leave me be
I have nightmares because of you and you say
I even became gay
because my life was so grey
When I feel all this heartache, anger, frustration and pain
am I insane?
When there is not one day that goes by, how I wish I can just
forgive and forget
even when you made a threat
I sit and wonder
why havent you done it yet?
I wish every day that this didn't happen, but I always seem to
get these same question running through my head
"WHY? WHY? WHY?"
When you even teased me and called me ugly and fat
then to top it all off you trod on me like a door mat
When I know all these things have changed me into a different human being
and then you started agreeing
Its like you think you never did anything wrong
but you know what?
that doesn't worry me as I know I am strong
BUT YET AGAIN