Where do I go now for I feel that I am lost;
have gone down so many roads and each one had it's cost.
Some that I have traveled have just been simply great;
while others were miserable and just not worth the wait.
Some taught me lessons I would have rather not learned;
others gave me happiness for which I had yearned.
The ones that left me feeling like I'd been hit by a train;
those I would rather just flush down the drain.
Now I feel empty and don't know which way to go;
feel like I have fallen into a deep and dark hole.
I want to get back out of that there is no doubt;
but try as I may I cannot find my way out.
It's lonely down here but I don't let anyone in;
because then they too would be caught up in the spin.
Time goes by faster and faster each day;
these demons inside I know I simply must slay.
Need to move forward and try another road;
get on with my life is what I have been told.
First I must leave this abyss into which I've fallen;
stand up, dust off and listen to whatever is calling.
But the hold that this darkness seems to have on me now;
is so hard to break free of and I just don't know how.
I will not give up and someday this will pass;
hopefully I will get it right and not fall on my ass.