Screaming Quietly

It is the middle of the night again,

I scream

and

I scream.

Going out of my mind,

It is more than i can bare.

Not sure what to do,

Who to be,

How to sound,

 How to survive and not lose the boy,

I used to be.

I need a whisper.

I need to know,

That there is still some purpose.

I have so much to say,

I wish I could tell you

Now.