Is it enough??

IS IT ENOUGH

                       Is it enough to just tell you over the phone

how much I love you, instead of to your face?

Is it enough to tell myself

that me leaving was a good thing for you?

                  Was leaving worth the tears and the sorrow

after me raising you for 3 of your 5 years?

Was leaving worth not getting to

see you off on your first official day of school?

Would I go back to you and mother,

even though I was tortured constantly everyday?

              Would I go back to the starvation and neglect,

just to protect you from what happened to me?

Is it enough?

No. It is not, nor will it ever be.

Was it worth it?

No. It was not.

Would I go back?

You bet your ass I would.

If it meant seeing you everyday,

Singing you to sleep every night,

Telling you how much I love you to your face,

Being your true big sister again;

Hell yes.

I would endure the starvation,

the beating, the neglect,

EVERYTHING

Just to see your beautiful face,

and to have you annoy me constantly.

Because that is how much I love you, Bambam.

An I am not going to do to you

what our big brother did to me

when I was little.