I don't wanna live this way anymore

I have the razor in my right arm

My left arm is all blood-stained

My face is white and hollow

My eyes are empty; no emotions are in them

My heart is empty; my life is in motions

I don’t wanna live this way anymore

Not going by life doing the motions

Cutting isn’t me

But who am I?

I’m not the person I use to be

All my friends has left me

They just couldn’t handle it

I can’t handle it anymore

I don’t wanna

But it seems to be my only way

No it not. I can change

I will, I’m tired of living like this

I don’t wanna cut myself when everything goes wrong

I can’t handle the fact of what it’s doing to my life

It’s just eating away my insides

I don’t wanna live this way anymore

I will change, I promise

I don’t wanna be like this

And I won’t

I will be a different girl

My life will be back on track

I’m not heading down this road any deeper

I’m changing my life style

I will be a better person

I will find out who I am, and this isn’t me!