I just don't know anymore

My life feels like it is getting back to normal

But will it say this way?
Or will something happens and make it flip again?
I don’t know if I could handle that

I’ve been through so much

I think I have found this guy

But then again will he hurt me too?

Or am I just getting worried over nothing?
When will I be able to say I love you back?

I just don’t know

My life is like a rollercoaster like I said

But I think I’m high up in the air

So isn’t it bound to come crashing down sometime?
Why can’t my life be easy for once?

I’ve been through enough haven’t I?

So much has happened in the past five years

But really a lot within the past year

Why can’t I have a break?

I’ve cried about enough to fill up an ocean

I just don’t know

I have been through hell and back

And then back to hell

I’m finally crawling back out

Will life be easier? Or will something else be thrown my way?

I just don’t know anymore