there's no word for how i feel.

i dont know how to put this in words

cause there's no word for what im feeling

heavily broken? tottally alone? sad?

but the truth is im just numb

no-one understands how i feel deep inside

like an invisible misery is leaving me to decay

draining the happiness out of me

so much i am feeling

but cant put it into words

i cant cry anymore cause the truth is that im numb

numb from everybody's whines

numb from everybody's lies

numb from all the heartbreak

not even my brain can tell how im dying inside

my memories so agonising like watching a horror movie in my head on repeat over and over

even nightmares arent as powerful as my constant reminders of the life i lead but dont want to follow

like im glued to the same horrific path

numb

numb is what i am

there's no words for what i am feeling.