Today I died
Tomorrow I’ll cry,
Constantly wondering why,
the world is making me try
I shall always be all alone,
Listening to the insignificants shallow drone,
Freezing cold and secluded,
Wondering when my brain became so deluded.
Constantly breaking my spine,
Helping other with their problems,
Losing my own time,
And any time left at redemption.
God, why are you so selfish?
Not letting me leave?
Making me suffer,
Making me breathe.
“they” call it stealing your life away,
But I’m only taking it away from me,
“they” think I should suffer quietly
For the rest of my days.
Then I’ll pretend to love this awful place,
That it’s clouds don’t trap me,
That I’ll have all the space
I’ll ever need,
As i wait here in my misery.
COME! HELP! SAVE ME! I thought to shout,
My soul is screaming with heavenly doubt,
But I know no one will ever come,
And when I realized that I started to run.
I’m running, running ,running away,
From all the darkness, from all the pain,
thinking if I get away, I may discover I’m sane,
But the farther I got, the more my heart wept,
Maybe I should never left.
There’s no way back,
My tracks covered in snow,
Looking in ice’s reflection, I attack,
Because I realize now I’ll never grow.
I’ll perish here in no mans land,
Buried underneath the hour glass’ sand,
Unless of course some one reaches a hand,
And maybe, just maybe my world will expand.
But it’s silly, and unbelievably pointless to hope,
Instead I’ll just drown in sorrow and mope,
No one ever helping me cope,