I'm trying now to discern
Trying so hard to finally learn.
Learn what course for me is best
And prevail in all God's grueling tests.
I've stopped talking so much
And started listening more.
Learning to stand without a crutch
While trying still to explore.
Explore life and what it means
Especially when nothing's what it seems.
To find myself and find my way
And get me through when skies are gray.
Observing the beauties of the earth
And thanking God for all He's worth.
Looking up into the sun
And remember God saying, "You don't have to run."
All I want is to figure it all out
But I'm swimming in a pool of my own self-doubt.
Not trusting what the Lord has planned.
And refusing to take his outstretched hand.
It seems that I keep telling myself
That nothing can keep me from this living hell.
But then with God I make a pact
And by His promises I'll learn to relax.
It's His will now I'm trying to see
And a sinful life I'm hoping to flee.
Yes I know the Lord's planned something more
If I only keep my eyes towards each open door.
I'll trust that it'll all be alright
And listen the God's whisper through the night.
I'll stop looking for my own desires
And discern about what God's conspired.