My Fear... Is you

The look you see in my eyes is not hesitation

It is fear; fear that you will hurt me again

And I wouldn’t be able to handle it once more

How can I trust you with my heart when you’ve shattered it before?

You sound so sure that I can walk away

But I’m afraid that’s not the case

Because I too carry a secret

You speak of lights and heavens

I think of stars and dreams

Sadly time is not in your favor, I may not be able to stay away

I may not be able to let you go

But if you make time your enemy I must move on

The pain you caused changed my perspective

I used to hold you in high esteem but now I feel dejected

Everyone seems to have the right idea and you’ve clouded my judgment

But after the hurt I am blind no more

I see a side of you I can no longer ignore

I see a flicker of hope as a single thought rushes

I wish your secret would come out

And that just being with me is enough

I pray that you would prove me wrong one last time

And I plead that if I am rejected, it is done in kind

Author

Whiteroses