The unknown of my life

My life is unknown

My life story is all my own

I sit in the dark

Wondering..

Where I am

Who I am

But never understanding excatley where I stand in life

I have been living in my own pain and sorrow

As my life spins around me

I slowly begin to lose faith

In what I have figured out...

Which is not myself

But who I have made myself

I have made myself into a carbon copy of everything around me

I feel my life tries to be pressured as close to perfect as it can be

But life can NEVER be perfect

I live in a world where happieness is always spinning around me

But never comes my way

Where life is surrounded in darkness

Its tried to be pushed back into place

A place where I am always happy

But no one can always be happy

Thats impossible

I may find myself

But I feel that I have so many alter egos

That they may be getting in the way of me finding myself

I am drowning in swirling memories

As the days grow older

And the seasons change

I become on day closer to finding myself