Death of me

I won't  murder this,
I won't let myself sabotage it,
Because they had a point,
I hate hurting people,
I'll only do it for defense,
He won't hurt me.
That's one thing I'm sure of
I won't let my worrying ruin a good thing,
Being hurt is my greatest fear,
But I'm only squeezing the life out of me.
So take  a breath,
enjoy a good thing,
It won't crush you later,
Remember how unhappy you are without him,
being miserable is causing his misery.
If not for him
I'll do it for me
I hate hurting people I love,
I won't cause pain anymore.
He will be the death of me,
But at least I'll die happy.