HOW / REMEMBER ME

How can I love myself when   everyone else seems to hate the air that I breathe?

How can I see the beauty within  when  everyone else sees the  monster in me  sometimes I forget my own name  all I hear is you so ugly  your lips are too big  and your skin makes me sick black and ugly is what you are what    my name I don’t remember

How can I speak up for myself when my words are taken out of content and replaced with things that I would   never say? Yet

 I go on what is left for me to say

How can I dream of a better tomorrow   be all that I can be when im told that I ‘am worthless and will never amount to nothing a waste of human skin?

How can I  smile when the world   won’t smile back at me   laughter and  finger pointing   talking  about  how I should never smile  no one want’s to  look at a smile  like mine

How can I trust the father when the father touches me in that way its normal he said this is how a father tells a daughter I love you

However, should it hurt and make me feel dirty

How can I find the will to live when I cannot find a reason to be here   if I died tonight would anyone remember me?

How can   fight for the rights of children all over the world    when I cannot fight the hands of a father

How can I  How can  you  remember  the  good  inside  of me  when you  can  only see what you  want to  see

The Ugly you wish me to be

If I died tonight,   would anyone remember me for the sadness in my eyes or the best of me?

Remember my laughter and my smile my dreams   or the flower that bloomed into the sunflower that I ‘am today 

Would anyone remember   how much I loved my father?

Will anyone   take the time to see that I ‘am beautiful in my eyes? 

How can I   spread my wings and fly when there is no wind to carry me and I cannot feel the wind beneath my wings  

How can I live when the world let me be?