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Can You Ever Forgive Me?

Poetry By: XBrokenHeartedX

Forgive me, for making the choice you didn't want me to make
Forgive me, for taking a different path instead of yours
Forgive me, for being me and not the person you wanted me to be
Forgive me, for not being you.
*I understand that the poem is a bit repetitive with all the "forgive me", but that's the way it played out in my mind, and I don't think I would be fully satisfied taking all the repetitiveness away*

Submitted:Dec 9, 2008    Reads: 1,028    Comments: 18    Likes: 9   

Forgive me

That world beyond ours, the one that shines an everlasting light on me in welcome

Wishes for me to be happy

Forgive me

For letting you take my soul and put it in hers

For letting her control me, make me, mold me until I collapsed in my defeat

Forgive me

For choosing to go right instead of left

For choosing to color my hair black instead of blond, and use eyeliner instead of glitter

Forgive me

For not telling you the truth behind the emotions that I showed in the past few weeks

For hiding my misery so that you could be happy again

Forgive me

For hating him so much

For wanting to run away, further than the end of the street this time and leave this hell of a life that I put up with for four years, for you

Forgive me

For making you spend so much on a therapist that knows me more than you ever will

For allowing you to let my problems fall on someone else's shoulders besides yours

Forgive me

For interrupting you with my feelings while you're so busy with work

For wanting to call and just tell you that I love you, and that I'm safe

Forgive me

For being the person that I am

For hanging out with the people you judge tremendously every day

Forgive me

For letting you judge me

For letting my sister judge me as well

Forgive me

For speaking my opinion out loud

For allowing my words to get the best of me so I can really speak how I feel, so that maybe every once and a while I can be happy again

Forgive me

For wishing for that happy ending

For waiting for that one person who can help me remember what it was like before

Forgive me

For breaking the rules every once and a while

For trying to break free of those bars on my life and feeling free for once

Forgive me

For letting you see that stupid mask every day

For letting my mask become me

Forgive me

For putting words in your mouth

For making it seem like I was selfish

Forgive me

For not telling you sooner

For not releasing how I felt

Forgive me

For wanting the best

And for wanting the worst for me

Forgive me

For taking that gun

For taking that shot

Forgive me

For the death I caused of myself

For ceasing the pain that I no longer have to feel

From the hate

From the loneliness

From you


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