The hardest moments aren’t those moments you try to keep a smile
Not when the moves aren’t right
Nor the times long or embarrassing moments
Difficult moment aren’t when your breathless
The most difficult moments are when you feel alone and in the dark
The times you see pain in peoples eyes
Pain they don’t deserve
When you begin to notice how much you are hurting the ones you care about most
The people who couldn’t harm you if they wanted to
When you look in the mirror and see
the remains of your one satisfactory self
Even just remembering every harsh word spoken
Replaying over and over in your head
Louder each time
Louder then it ever was
Seeing triggers and not knowing they’re hurting you
The worst moment is the is the moment you come to the conclusion
you’ll never be good or enough ever again
No matter what
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