My Secret Wish....

Life is just a lull,

nothing really going on....

Day by day,

life is ok,

but it's not the life I want.

My past is brutal,

and now there's this lull.

I'm wishing the gun would fire,

and the race would begin,

the race to live my life at a full.

In this lull is darkness,

and I often wish to go...

Shot by a crook

or hit by a car,

yet often I just wish for the rope.

In this lull of misery and nothingness,

I secretly wouldn't mind to go.