I feel so scared and so alone, but who can I turn to?
This last April keeps bringing flashbacks into my head.
I can see myself lying there screaming and begging HIM to stop.
I can see HIM laughing at me saying "see this is fun, isnt it?".
I see myself squirming trying to get away.
I can see myself running away with HIM at my heels.
When my friend told me she was rapted I felt a whirl of emotions; anger, frustration, understanding, sorrow, and lastly DEPRESSION.
I wanted to cry because I never wanted what Happened to me to happen to ANY OTHER GIRL!!!
That is why she doesnt know what to call her baby because it's a product of rape and she wants her newborn daughter to have a good life.
That night keeps replaying in my head.
I keep thinking its my fault that HE raped me because I trusted HIM, I belived that HE changed, and I thought HE wasent like HE used to be but I guess I was way wrong!!!!