Since young I have an active imagination. I like to draw and weave stories. Before joining the charismatic community, I have already had scary visions that I only set aside and regarded as one of my imagination. Until now I still don't know what happened before is due to illness or for real. But after the Baptism of the Holy Spirit and saw what others had already seen, I was convinced then I had a gift of vision. Almost all of us who had given the gift had seen the descending dove with a bleeding heart. The feeling is unexplainable. It's a mixed joy and awe. I was shocked at first that I don't know how to react. After which I saw a blinding light as if I'm in a spotlight. Funny thing is that my eyes were closed that time and I know that there's no light on near us and I can't even open my eyes. Since then whenever I'm in deep prayer I saw things that brought joy within. The most memorable was during mass before Christmas that during consecration, instead of a priest I saw Jesus himself standing in the middle.
During our retreat in Tagaytay, the presiding priest wants to develop our gifts that he let us perform some exercises. I was at glee whenever I saw things that others also saw. I saw an empty chair, bush with flowers, etc, etc. Though I just let others interpret the meaning of these things because honestly I don't have any idea. The last vision I saw was when I was already attending prayer meetings here in Singapore. It was during my fall when I was being prayed over, I saw a picture of Mama Mary in red dress and blue sash with an exposed Immaculate Heart. The peace I felt within had brought a smile the whole evening. The night before I got the news that I am accepted in the new job here, I dreamt of the Christ the King with exposed Sacred Heart. I knew then that morning that I would receive a good news that day. I don't know if this was also a vision but that dream has also brought joy within. Our unquestionable faith always brought miracles and I hope that this attitude of trusting Jesus is until the rest of my life, until I will meet Him face to face.